Aging, Getting Older and Dying

It's gloomy to think about that as the years go on, family, friends, lovers, co-workers, people we admire are dying one by one. I, myself, always have the thought of going to bed and I might not even wake up again. And of course, as I get older, the probability just gets higher and higher. It's especially truer to those who are much older like my parents. I see them taking a lot of medications, have several ailments and they've gone through surgeries. It's not always about being old because I've had family and friends who died at a young age. We never know how much time we have left. One of these days, just like that, you're gone. I've even had this habit of looking at Wikipedia's section of recent deaths to see if someone famous I admire have died. I might not be prepared who's next but I need to have full acceptance when it happens. Knowing someone died always gets to me, saddens me; but at the same a feeling of relief that they're free from any pain they've ever had being human.