Gory read. Not generally my cup of tea but I managed to read it all and gotta say damn... That's nuts. Glad you made it through the pain to write the experience for us. I'm a skinny bloke so I can't really imagine the want to lose weight.. Hell, I wish I knew a way to gain weight. :/ Totally different things I guess in the long run but I guess ones drive to look or feel better to themselves is always there no matter if one is considered over or underweight.