eating disorder

this post is the daughter of a good friend is important for me the support for the family

As some of you may or not know I have spent the majority of this year in hospital. This is one of the scariest things that I have ever had to post but I want to make everybody aware of the devastating consequences that an eating disorder can have on somebodies life. The first two photos are of my second admission to an inpatient unit. I was exhausted, freezing even though it was summer time, I had fine lanugo hair growing on me to keep me warm as my body began to shut down. I would wake up at 6am everyday and pace my room until I went to sleep at night, I wouldn’t let myself sit down at all and hated every second that I was alive. I was being restrained by 4+ members of staff multiple times a day for NG feeds under a section. I was being fed through a tube of plastic because otherwise I would have died. Am I recovered? No. Infact I’m still in exactly the same mindset as I was when I got admitted. But in the last photo at least I can spend time with my friends without worrying about my next feed or how I was going to burn every single last calorie off. I am allowed to go on leave every other week after not going home in 5 months. Anorexia kills, it’s not just a ‘phase’ that people will grow out of. It’s a mental illness and the quicker that people start realising that then the easier it will be for those suffering in silence to speak out. If you’re struggling please speak to someone before it’s too late whether that’s eating disorder related or not, you matter always remember that❤️ because nothing is more valuable than good mental health. I’ve been in hospital for over 8 months now and yeah things have only got harder along the way but hopefully it’ll all be worth it in the end🤙🏻;

enjoy​ and have a good end of the year