A friend that I went to school with also died in her sleep about 10 years ago and at the time, although it was a shock and I was upset, my children were not yet born or even contemplated, but after they were born and they went from being babies to toddlers I often found myself thinking about her untimely death and worrying that if I died my children would have no real memories of me and that I would only exist to them in photos or stories told to them by their mother. I felt the dark cloud you felt and sometimes still do, even though they are 6 and 7 years old now and will at least have real memories should I die tomorrow.
Do you still feel as positive today about the future as you did when you wrote the post three years ago? I find it hard to remain positive about the world and the future for my children as I become more aware of how the world works but knowing there are people out there like yourself who have a vision for the future that is different and hopeful makes me feel a little bit better.
That's a good question. I think there is likely some major heartache to come on this planet. And to those in "first world" countries. The heartache is already devastating other places. It's my prayer and my hope that my son will not have to suffer under the evil that currently rules this world, but I guess my greater hope is that he will be strong inside, and realize that ultimately he is invincible, as he is on the side of love. I really do think people are waking up. It's just a matter of saying "no," which people have been reticent to do since the dawn of time out of fear of reprisal. Evil only has one game, though, and it always runs out of gas. The fact that folks like you are out there is proof to me that, even if it seems black as hell, we've already "won," because love is what is behind this whole thing in the first place.
Thats how I see it, at least.