I imagine you'd relate to that too

I do. Very much. This was originally a yoga post, but spiraled into other areas. Being here where life happens is such a beautiful trick, but a really weird one, no? It doesn't matter how many times you learn how to do it, you still can forget it sometimes.

WE can say lean in, be vulnerable, accept, breath, release - but in practice, it's a lot harder.

Ha, left a similar comment on your new post (well, a bit of it anyway). Of course, easier said than done. Maybe you're not supposed to let go? I think all the words come out of a place of both love and fear. People who love you want you to not hurt anymore. But we're also afraid. Grief is scary and we treat it like it's infectious. I want you to stop feeling so bad because you remind me it's gonna happen to me, too.

Again, I don't know if you're supposed to let it go. 'Cause there's this underlying notion that you're supposed to let go and eventually stop hurting and rebecome the person you were before somebody died. Except how does that work? They were there before and were a major part of you, so how?

Maybe you're not supposed to let go, maybe you're just supposed to learn to live in this new reconfiguration. We wouldn't say let go to someone who'd just moved halfway across the world if they kept having flashbacks about their old life.

So instead of 'let go', feel what you feel. You will not feel it forever. Even if you feel hopeless, angry, lost and hold on to it till your fingers bleed, you will still not feel it forever. Whether you personally let go or not, things will rearrange themselves anyway, time will pass. You're okay (even when you're not).

❤️ you.