Oh No! I am so sorry for your loss! I have been down this road and I know whatever we or I say won't make much of a difference. You are the only one that could make that happen. But I know she is at PEACE. A perfect peace! Free from all the hustles and heartaches of this world. Be strong! Be strong BROTHER. Only remember the good times. It helps. It had helped me. I know this is going to be tough. Please accept my heartfelt sincere condolence. I, on behalf of all the steemians really wish you well and hope you come out from this strong. I won't say stronger because I do not want to lie. May the peace that passes all understanding be with you.