life is such that you can never calculate what happens next no matter how prepared one can be. my only wish for you is that you have close people you can rely on and i hope you are not going through a lot of pain because i lost a very close relative of mine to breast cancer and i can say that it was not an easy thing to deal with. I pray and wish that your nature and stuborness will motivate you to fight this illness with all your might. And remember that you have a lot of support from people like me and other people on this platform and dont hessitatae to ask for my help when you need it