Reading your story with Baby Sam was really entertaining :D He is so cute and I love you kept on couraging him to walk! :)
I know the feeling of:" Hell, what am I doing here?!" while loving this little human in the same time! I used to be a Babysitter and worked in a kids and youth center for a year. One day we gave a party for the kids (age about 6 to 12) and I should care for them alone while a coworker checked the area from time to time. Suddely about 30 or 40 kids came into the building in a freakin' loud and excited party mood and I was like: "Oh dear god, I didn't even have lunch yet! What the hell?!" But it ended up a very tiring yet funny day full of laughter and grateful and happy kids. I loved it but I was relieved it was over :D