This isn't living....

I haven't blogged lately and actually haven't talked to many people especially my friends. I have been in a debilitating depression for almost a month and even though my psychiatrist increased my dosage of my antidepressant add on, life has just not got any better.

Now, the depression seems more situational as, my Pay Pal was hacked and I lost a few bucks due to it and have to wait 6-8 weeks for it to be replaced and open a new account. My Social Security that would be going in there tomorrow will now be returned so, I am up the creek without a paddle. I did call Social Security and they stated that when it is returned to them, they will mail a check or I can use my Venmo Account which I haven't used however, it is up and running and I even have the debit card for it thank goodness. So, I gave SS my Venmo Account Number and guess it will take 10-14 days per Social Security. Since Venmo is part of the Pay Pal Family one would think that it would be an easy fix. Nothing is ever as simple as it should be. Fate is definitely having a good laugh at me right now. So, for now I'm screwed.

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In other news, I have my surgical date for the removal of the metatarsal bone on my right foot. This is due to Diabetes and the bone being infected. I won't lose any toes, I will have to learn how to walk on that foot as, the big toe or as they say "Great Toe" will be floppy and I won't have control. I am getting ahead of myself here as, first I need to heal from the surgery on May 4th and then can begin Physical Therapy.
I miss talking to my friend Jerry on a daily basis however, just have not had the energy and I am blogging as, this is what Jerry would say to do. It does help to get stuff off your chest in a world of unknown wonderful people. I miss you Jerry.

I have been active on Facebook putting up cat pictures as they does bring me some joy. It also allows for people to know I still exist even though I feel nonexistent.

I still have not come to a positive conclusion if I should rehome my 2 furkids and need to do so quick as, I definitely am not going to be able to afford them for a few weeks and that is not fair to them. I feel like a lousy father in that sense. This time around it's not my fault that I didn't budget correctly. Oh well, maybe someone will come to my aid.


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So, that's where my life is at the moment and I am going to try and add a few pictures of my 2 furkids. I'm new at this block chain blogging.
Please be well and take care of yourselves. I'll end this with my standard Rainbow Love and Prini and Tigger Hugs to all. Especially Jerry.