You have to more bad memory in your teenage. But fortunately you're very better situation now. Experience giving more successful task to our life. Pain feeling must need to being success. See in your mind’s eye the end result see how much different your life would look if you changed the way you think. Feel the feelings that come from being a positive thinker. Feel the feelings of excitement, peace, joy and tranquility. Allow yourself to become one with those feelings. We need to create our life passion. Then We will automatically change our mind to success way. Act as if you are already there, act as if you already are the happy, loving and joyful person you aspire to be and trust that by doing so you will eventually trick your mind into thinking that you are already there. Finally We receive best result after follow my steps. Good luck @kaylinart.