Everyone is 'maybe' going to face this phase in their lives.

"Jeri, you must be patient. at least for the next two years.
In these two years, you can maximize your service, trying to be faithful to God while doing everything that pleased Him. After that, you can find a long-lasting partner who can help you by experiencing the same life as your service mission for God's satisfaction".

Yup, when you have stated your life vision in front of God, you have to be persistent in living your life for that vision. that visions will change entirely your way in discerning this world. you will consider everything that you choose whether is it helpful toward your visions or not. it is happening to me now.

the first paragraph above is what my spiritual guide advised to me. i have to be very careful in every aspects of my life, including choosing my life partner. she must be the one that come first when i feel down. she must at the frontier in helping me to reach those visions. no, those are not my visions anymore, they are going to be ours. yeah, after marrying, every 'me' must be 'us'. every 'my' must be 'our'. every 'I' must be 'we'. if she has different visions in marrying or life then, she is not supposed to be yours. if you ignored this consideration, there won't be 'us, our, or we' term at all in your relationship. that is the thing you must consider the most...

I don't know who will read this thoughts of mine but, i want to tell you that, my vision of life is to help this religion achieves its highest standing in civilization. whenever bani At Thabari rise, Islam must be shining there with all its particular aspects especially manners and education. i may say i succeeded it when someone think about Islam, what come first are love, tolerance, and scientists.

that is my vision...