A Mindwalk On Mother's Day

It is Mother's Day, here in the USA. Happy Mother's Day to everyone!

Since my mother passed away some years back, this day has become more about our adult kids and my wife. However, I like to take a few moments to reflect on the past, and times I used to spend with my own mother.

Lives of Diverging Perspectives

Although I was primarily raised by my mother-- my parents separated when I was about ten-- we were never particularly close. Yes, we were certainly biologically connected, but our outlook on life and what was "important" was mostly at odds. 

I don't make that statement lightly, but it was never just a case of the typical parent/child disagreements of defiance... we just ended up with fundamentally different values, belief systems and worldviews. She was conservative in an often narrow-minded and even bigoted way (other people's words, more than mine)... and while I was never what you'd call a "hairy liberal," my own worldview tends to be far more open, alternative and expansive.

Our relationship was not made any closer by my leaving home and starting out on my own when I was 18, and subsequently moving from Europe to the US, putting thousands of miles of geographical distance between us, in addition to the spiritual/philosophical distance.

I should add that we were always very cordial with each other, in spite of our differences... but there were large "minefields" in our relationship where we just never entered into conversation.

And Then There Was the Kitchen...

The one place my mother and I always connected and had a great time was in the kitchen.

Even if it was a little out of character for my mother's remaining life perspectives, she was adamant that "I'm not sending some helpless and hapless man who can't feed himself out into the world!" 

I was maybe five or six when she first stuck a potato peeler in my hand and set me to work peeling potatoes, apples and carrots. In the course of the next 10-12 years, she taught me most of the basics of cooking and food... and beyond. I served as her "assistant" when she catered swank parties for diplomats and dignitaries; I helped out when we had groups of family and friends for dinner.

As the years rolled by the kitchen became the center for most of our visits. We really didn't have a lot to say to each other about life, so once the typical "when are you going to get yourself a REAL job and join a nice country club so you can meet the right kind of people" conversations out of the way, we'd start planning meals and cooking time... and the remaining 3-4 days of the visit would revolve around food.

What's Left Today... Good Food!

My mother passed away in 2009, at age 87 after spending about a year in an assisted living center, due to worsening dementia.

Not surprisingly, there were about 6000 miles separating us, at the time of her death. I spent some time feeling somewhat guilty over the fact that I didn't really feel a great sense of loss when she passed. The only thing I felt strongly was that it seemed strange that we would never cook together again.

The most significant thing she left me was her collection of cookbooks... many of which I continue to use, to this day. Stuffed in the pages in between are also 100's of handwritten recipes... many of them the result of "kitchen experiments" we did together. 

In retrospect, the most interesting thing-- even though my mom and I were never all that close-- is that she's "there" in some way, every time I step in the kitchen...

Happy Mother's Day to all!

How about YOU? Any special memories or activities you associate with your mother? Are/were you close... or not so close? Leave a comment and share your experience-- start the conversation!

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