Hey there @maverickinvictus, I am sorry you have been suffering so much as of late man, but I am sure you know negative periods never last forever, eventually things turn around and happiness finds it way back.

I know you can be a really creative person, so maybe you could try to express your frustrations in the most honest way possible by making use of your creativity, and maybe by doing this other people or even yourself can realize what to do to overcome these difficult moments.

I hope you are well my friend and I wish you a lot of happiness.