This week has felt more like a month. There’s been a lot of good - new connections, realisations and opportunities - but my spirits were a little low.
Sometimes having so much going on can be overwhelming and make you feel more unsure than you did before all these new options presented themselves.
I’ve had to face the fact that some people do not give nearly as much as I do and therefore continuing a relationship with them would be unhealthy.
When you’ve invested so much that is hard and disheartening to accept.
I also hurt my shoulder in boxing on Monday so had to sit the rest of the week out and I find not exercising makes me lethargic. On top of everything it’s been full moon!
For all the reasons mentioned above I haven't been feeling my best and I woke up on Sunday drained and low.
All of me felt like spending the day in bed feeling sorry for myself and I nearly did. But then a little voice inside reminded me that I’m in control of my happiness.
No matter what has happened or will happen, I have the choice to be positive, to carry on, to hold my head up and smile.
I washed and blow dried my hair - any girl will tell you that a good hair day immediately lifts your mood - and then chucked on some make up and a pair of heels and went up the road to my friend’s birthday.
The party was being thrown at a very vibey restaurant owned by a friend of mine. Everyone was sitting on the deck against the backdrop of the mountain, the music was pumping and people of all ages were dancing and sipping on cocktails - the perfect summer scene.
I took a deep breath and consciously chose to enjoy the atmosphere rather than be overwhelmed by how different it was to what I was feeling. We danced and drank and laughed until I’d forgotten that I’d woken up feeling sad.
Sitting amongst everyone I silently gave myself a little pat on the back.
I could’ve let the day be a right off, convinced myself the odd down day wasn’t the end of the world. I could’ve isolated myself and stayed at home. But I didn’t. I picked myself up and it worked.
I ended up having a brilliant time, my friend who owns the place arrived and we stayed long after closing time, dancing and singing in what was now our own private bar :)
I have a bit of a headache this morning, but it was worth it to prove to myself once again that we make or break our own happiness.
Headache or not I’ve woken up positive and ready to embrace whatever this new week has to offer.
Wishing you all a wonderful week ahead.
Love,
Daisy xx
( @daisyd )
I like your phrase, "I have the choice to be positive"