Maybe it's genius and insanity? Two sides of the same coin. A spitting image of itself. Most days, I feel simultaneously stable and crazy, but over the years I've learned to just embrace it and accept that life is weird. The meds help, too.
Anyway — congrats on pursuing your dreams, and for dreaming in the first place. That's really the only way to make waves.
It's a balancing act. Both sides must be embraced in order to reach full potential. Much like how someone can't be happy without the existence of sadness. How would you know you are happy if you didn't have something to compare it to? Everything is necessary and plays a crucial role. If you're hiding a part of yourself so that others only see what you think they want to see, you will become invisible.
You speak truth. I spent many years of my life being invisible. That is in the past, though.