Sadly while very much a part of my kids' upbringing...hard to say if I really felt like I "enjoyed" those years...nothing they did or didn't do...just where I was at with my and my spouse's reality back in time...glad to hear you can find the time and mind set to appreciate certain moments...
I feel lucky to have a second chance with my grand kids...
I get it. It can be so hard to be present when other parts of life are happening around you. That second chance is lovely. I'm so happy for you!