"Every man for himself." "A dog eats dog world."
I used to have abundance of empathy for people and things. I regret to say, the ability to feel for others is either suppressed or diminished in the present me. The recurring question that comes to mind nowadays is always "How does this affect me in any way?"
I never really believed these phrases when I was younger. But I guess as we grow up and experience more events and happenings, our views change too. Probably I was too naive back then, living in a greenhouse, shielded away from the harsh truths of life, having parents who are always thoughtful of others, etc.
Incidents where my so-called 'friends' ditched me for their own benefits taught me to accept the notion that it is the innate nature of humans to be selfish. Seeing how my competitors compete ruthlessly, by hook or by crook, was eye-opening.
Previously, I never understood why some people are so skeptical in nature. Now that I have seen and felt the way humans reciprocate your friendship, I have become less compassionate towards the external environment. All this while, I have always thought of how my actions would affect my surroundings before taking any action. In the past, I would not second-guessed anyone's intention whenever they approach me, or helped me in some way.
However, I still have some soft spot for the kind deeds reported in the media. I still think that the world would be much better if more good Samaritans exist. In my heart, I thank such people for making this world a better place. But unfortunately, I am less inclined to believe in "Be the change you wish to see in this world".
"In the past, I wanted to change society. But now, society has changed me." So true, indeed.