I can relate to this in my normal life; as i have put more work into myself to improve and learn and understand who I truly am in this realm I have been blessed to be surrounded with more likewise people, this is a saving grace as it allows me the space to have my freedom of expression, congruence and authenticity.
However in the workplace i am being forced down a path of playing the machiavellian game; i hate it, but it has to be done. Workers do not embrace honesty, they frown upon it and are feared of knowing truth.
I would be unaware that i am holding space for those around me. I have two extreme cynical narcissists in my close proximity. I would find myself taking on and embodying their energy and getting frustrated and demotivated. In recent days I literally said 'fuck this, i am not being an emotional sponge for these twats', i felt a huge release as i allowed myself to be myself alone and literally within a minute the magick happened and these two had a go at each other. I laughed at the situation.
When i am in these environments i have found myself using binaural beats to actively raise my vibration again, i have been tired and frustrated at their behaviour and they feed off of mine. Instead i raise my vibration and become a beacon thus forcing a quieter and more relaxed work place.
In my life and role of spiritualism i can be one thing; when i am forced to fit in a box i can become another but what i am finding is that there can be that balance, i can be what i wish, what i want for the highest good, i can play the game but i can still put out good juju that helps those around me without becoming that spongebag that people unaware rely on.
Though i have been close to unaware and unwilling sensitives in the past and i would find it frustrating that they know no other way to deal with their shit and the shit of those around them; each of us is walking their path at a different rate, i have to be aware and accepting that i can not force someone out of their illusions but only be the light and example to allow them to see in themselves that this is possible
Thanks for the great comment. Narcissists to me, are actually sensitives with very high defences. When the defenses start to come down at different times in their lives then they work extremely hard to hold up the facade. Some will learn this life and unfortunately, some will not.
But we can only assist those that want to assist themselves.
It is priority you remain grounded within your work situation and that you reserve the time and space you need away from such toxic personalities, like you have.
I have written a follow-up article on securing the energy body here. link
In love,
Monty