Don't think about it, good or bad, do what you're thinking right now. Let yourself smile and be happy on a grey weekday. Stop talking to people after you've talked to people that make you feel gross. They take all the power out of you, you don't have to be good for everyone, we are what we are, and for a moment there are more than 7 billion people on the planet, believe me, there are those who will love you for all the little things that you have. And if he doesn't appreciate you, leave him behind and build a new future. You will love, simply because you are and you are beautiful. Everyone makes mistakes, allow yourself to sometimes do the wrong thing. All these actions teach us to make the right decisions and find the right people.