I'm glad you at least tried. Most people don't even get to that point. I disagree with you about wage labor being immoral, but that's not really the point of this post. It's an enormous challenge to face the feelings of loss and despair whenever we invest in something and find it come up short, so I'm proud of you for doing that here. It's a good thing, and something I strive to do myself. :) Keep up the good work.