You are so right, it's the same for me, deep down I know what I want to do and where to get, but I don't know how and I am too scared to try it, so all I do is just lie myself that I will find something else, something better but in the end I come back to what I feel deep down. Always had and managed to get over short-term plans your post motivates me to try and go for the long one at least once. Thank you @kaylinart