I read this post and remembered myself, during 2 years I had serious problems with my inner world, everyday started with terrible thoughts, that my life is boring and everything around me is a bunch of falsity. but nothing has changed with this negative thoughts, situation was getting even worse and worse, In this time i read the book called Secret, this book became stimulus for me, I analyzed that if you'll be happy and positive for what you have now life responds you with the same joy and energy and it'll show you all the positive sides, when you're angry and sad every time the respond will be the same, so It's up to you, you have to find strenghth in your own soul and move aside all the negative thoughts.
I'm glad that your boldness is optimistic. Remember that we create life ^_^ wish you all the best