I 100% agree with you on the medication part. I don’t even take over the counter pain meds either. There will come a place and a time where I’ll really need some extra help in life. I have no desire yet to start building a tolerance or dealing with the side effects.
This causes way to much stress in life and it’s not worth holding onto“ I just want to do everything right so badly.” All you can do is put in your best effort on the good days, and your third best on hard days!
I use to get everything right the first time because I thought I had to in life. You know where it got me? Right back at the start of having to commit my time to something else since it didn’t work out. Was not worth it no matter how much passion I had, or how often I reminded myself that it was for my own “best interest” to not just do well but to be perfect for the thing at hand. I’m certain that’s why I have grey hairs in my beard!
You ever draw or taken the time to exercise outside of the gym and enjoy nature? I can only imagen how fast things move in Los Angeles. Some times its worth slowing down a tad and taking a moment to watch a bird fly across the sky or a flower in a garden swaying back and forth in a slight wind.
Thank you for sharing.
It sounds like you're a perfectionist like I am. I want to do things "right" so I don't have to do them all over again, but I usually end up back where I started -- just like you said. Sometimes I'm not sure how many times I can handle starting over; it makes me feel like a chronic screw-up.
I do take walks outside with my dogs and occasionally go hiking or to the beach, but I don't have as much contact with nature as I'd like. It's my plan to eventually move away from LA, but it's not feasible at the moment since this is where I have a job.
I’ve lower my bar of acceptance a fair amount over the years. Even let some of the little things slide even as it’s just not worth it anymore stressing over. But to a certain extent I still am. Quite a few things I have written have not made it to the block chain.
Perfection is not worth the cost of holding you back from your true potential. I’ve know this for almost forever. Yet, I am horrible at following it!