It sounds like you're a perfectionist like I am. I want to do things "right" so I don't have to do them all over again, but I usually end up back where I started -- just like you said. Sometimes I'm not sure how many times I can handle starting over; it makes me feel like a chronic screw-up.
I do take walks outside with my dogs and occasionally go hiking or to the beach, but I don't have as much contact with nature as I'd like. It's my plan to eventually move away from LA, but it's not feasible at the moment since this is where I have a job.
I’ve lower my bar of acceptance a fair amount over the years. Even let some of the little things slide even as it’s just not worth it anymore stressing over. But to a certain extent I still am. Quite a few things I have written have not made it to the block chain.
Perfection is not worth the cost of holding you back from your true potential. I’ve know this for almost forever. Yet, I am horrible at following it!