Hi Diary and God, are you listening to me? It is said that God watches everyone but are you really watching me? Don’t you see what’s happening with me or you’re enjoying yourself? I never did wrong to someone then why the heck everything wrong keeps on happening to me? It’s too much and now I want my answer.
You know, everything good keeps on happening to people around me who always bully me and make fun of me. It’s not like I don’t want them to grow it’s just the thing that if everything good keeps on happening to them being a bad person! who didn't even have feelings towards others, who think that they are the best, who does bad to everyone, who doesn’t even do a good deed, who don't even pray to you for a single time, then why everything bad keeps on happening to me? Why do you discriminate me
? I always help others, I always respect others and you know that too but still, my question remains the same WHY? If you say that you promote truth, honesty, loyalty, peace then where are you? Are you sleeping? Couldn’t you see what my life has turned to?
Do you know what I observed till now that you always help bad people. Your rules aren’t for them. But if a good person does something wrong then you apply your rules and punish them. Partiality…Ok! If you really care about good people then why all those good people suffer. And on the other side, all those bad people enjoy and have fun.
You’re listening, right? I started praying to you before even my birth, I use to go to church and temple every single day during school. Though my school life was a mess and it still is. I'm not saying all these things as an arrogant. But I am really fed up with everything. My life’s graph is going down and down. I never did bad to anyone but still don’t know why problems in my life aren’t ready to stop instead they are just increasing. People use me for there benefit and I can't-do anything. And you know that I fought with you cause of these reasons. But I am sorry! I apologized to you so many times, I am sorry! But what’s the other choice? You yourself are not helping me. You yourself know my past, what I have faced and what I am facing but still, you are just sitting right up there and all those bad people are chilling outside freely. Why this discrimination? Are you yourself a racist? I’ll be honest with you but now it’s too much and now I want things to get changed. I mean, I don’t mean that I do all these deeds to get some good rewards from you but that doesn’t mean that my life will still be filled with problems. Literally, you know everything right! Then please help me. Seriously please help me. I need you. I hope you listened to me. I hope that you will help me and give me my answer one day soon.