Haha! I should show you some of my paintings at different stages of my life - you would laugh! I love that you're carrying on. I remember being so frustrated at different points early on because what I imagined in my mind wasn't on the paper. Just by keeping at it, not giving up, and getting help from people who were way beyond me, I have been able to grow so much. There is such an amazing satisfaction from being able to paint what you see in your mind and have it work out. You'll get there! It's a fun journey. Share with me as you go! I'd love to see your process.
All the best!