Welcome to steem! I love that you are able to reflect on your mistakes and accept that you messed up, takes a lot of courage and insight to be able to do that. It's great to see how much you love your gf and how devoted you are to her, keep treating her with love and respect and she will be yours forever. Hope you have success in steemit and in all your crypto investments, I am also new to crypto and I'm super excited for things to come. Cheers!