Thankyou for such an honest sharing bro. I want to give you my honest opinion, and where I am coming from is having journeyed from a place of dissatisfaction in my self to a place of peacefulness and much gratitude for what I have. I'm a human being like you.

Gaming

I too used to spend waaay too much time gaming, what I played was DOTA 2, so not too dissimilar to WoW. In the end I gave it up out of self disgust, it was making me very emotionally unbalanced interacting with the other players - these people werent on a quest to complete themselves, they just wanted to stay in the distraction.

If you are serious about finding out what's troubling you then you will have to let some things go, and these things might be people that you have a connection with through the game.

It's hard to do, but if we can let go of what no longer serves us - then it allows new things to come in that more accurately match how we feel and who we are.

I haven't thought about it for a while but I miss my gaming buddies a little bit, yet I don't regret my decision. I still have love in my heart for these people, and in time there might be ways to reconnect on another level.

Finding Love

I have spent a lot of time fixating on a partner (or a lack of a partner), and wanting to connect in a way that enhances my life as well. I have been really unhappy both by myself and in relationships with girls/women.
Ultimately I realised that I needed time to myself to really find out who I was before I could truly give of myself in a relationship.

Going through this I have learned that it all really comes back to us in the end, it's our own decision how to move forward in our lives. It's easier to say that change will happen when these conditions are met, like having a friend to motivate you, or having a partner that completes you. And I agree these things are beautiful, and they can definitely help you on your journey.

The fundamental thing we want is happiness though, and that can only really come from within. On one level that is simply being fully honest with ourselves and our pain in this life. On another level it is having the courage to pursue the things that make us feel alive. On another level entirely it's taking the journey inward to find a lasting happiness and aliveness.

I think your journey is just beginning, but I can tell already that you are ready for a change. It may be uncomfortable at first, but the more you can relax into it 'not knowing', then the more your new life will come to you.

Much Love Brother
Respect to you
Thanks again for sharing your truth