Following down a rabbit hole

So this is meant to be my introduction to the Steemit community.

This morning I feel like a refugee from the mainstream social media world. Only insofar as I feel it has become the very thing I turned to it to get away from many many years ago.

Don't get me wrong - I have nothing against those particular mediums; hell, I've even successfully built a clinical business on one in particular (FB). But I've noticed my newsfeed is full of sentiments which are usually poorly expressed, rather than bad in and of themselves.

Plus, I'm experiencing a death of sorts existentially and personally. Moving away from the identity that I have in the world and looking for answers in the cybernetic frontiers. Kind of like going 'walkabout'.

So I'm not entirely sure I can give a short little bio, explaining my job and my identity, and my likes and dislikes.

The short story is, I'm exploring horizons.

The long story is, in the process of me trying to discover the answers to the ultimate question of life, the universe, and everything (yes, I know its 42, but now I'm trying to understand the question 😉) I have found myself battered and bruised my what I can only explain is a combination of fast-paced hustle world and my own lack of self-worth.

It sounds more dramatic than it actually is - but this describes what feels to me to be like some cosmic tug-of-war between two ways of being:

• achieving, succeeding, hustling, attaining goals and visions, and being a hero (yang)
• living momentarily, in ease, contemplative and not particularly concerned about the future or the past (yin)

And of course, what I feel is the ultimate goal: integrating the two in such an artful, effortless way that I somehow become the truest expression of who I am.

Which makes my life interesting. And often annoying. And sometimes downright boring; at other times exhausting.

So in the present moment - apart from being on a personal journey of re-discovery - I am a practitioner of Chinese Medicine and Acupuncture, Qi Gong & Tai Chi. I closed my clinical practice in January after opening it 2.5 years years (after closing previous clinic and moving back to hometown Melbourne) and began to extend the nature of how and what I did with clients, incorporating my years of experience and experimentation with Shamanic ideas, NLP, Hypnosis, meditation, process-work, and alchemical/occult ideas.

Needless to say, I feel the constraints of my profession closing in on me.

I've been working with business gurus and coaches around understanding the nature of what I do, and how to market it and monetise it... which unfortunately has led me to the point where I am disliking what I previously loved and now can't find the pleasure in it.

So, this middle-aged journey of wondering.

I find myself here because I love reading good writing and interesting ideas; I also like to journal and write about my own. And whilst FB once was a great vehicle for me to indulge in that, it's kinda become something else. Plus, I find the whole blockchain/crypto world intriguing.

For me, this is the world that William Gibson, Phillip K Dick, and Douglas Rushkoff promised decades ago. But for some reason I got left behind and only now I'm catching up. And for that I'm glad.

Anyway, that's about it for now. Tasks to take care of. Daughter to parent (school holidays here in Melbourne).

I'm looking forward to spending more time here. What I've read so far has stimulated the bored centres of my consciousness....

Feels good to be here.....

Take care, y'all
😊🙏🏽☯️