Welcome to Steemit @heyhownow! :c)

Nobody should feel obliged to smile if they don't feel like it. As long as you are feeling great on the inside then its alright!

It sounds like there are various topics that you can post about in future. First step will be establishing your 'personal brand'. Not exclusively as a fashion designer perhaps. :c)

Since you're new here, a quick read through this post may prove helpful.