WHO i am and WHAT i do (introduction post)

Hello there!

I'm into drawings and writing short poems, mainly in german, though i tried to translate some into english. It went surprisingly well. I will allways try a translation and post in both of the languages. Sometimes i also like to photograph nature stuff.
Below, you can see one picture of a sunrise taken in italy, read a poem that i wrote myself (english & german), see a drawing (not too good, but not bad either), see a picture of me at the beach and two pictures of myself in the end of the post. Of course, there is more intruduction inbetween the pictures. Have Fun!

lonesome sunrise in italy

Lonesomeness is hard to feel.
You find yourself anytime.
I can be alone everywhere,
not only by myself.

So many faced me foreign.
Where is the inside of those people?
Are they really free from the holes in their conscience?
Or do the fears eat their way throughout the skin to the surface?

Lonesomeness, the bitter voice,
tears apart the inner silence,
crying loud 'bout evil choice,
of people living in still violence.

Einsamkeit ist schwer zu spüren.
Man findet sich jederzeit.
Allein sein kann ich überall,
nicht nur mit mir selbst.

So viele sind mir fremd begegnet.
Wo nur, ist die Innenseite der Menschen?
Sind sie wirklich befreit von den Löchern in ihrem Gewissen?
Oder fressen sich die Ängste langsam durch die Haut nach draussen?

Einsamkeit, die schlimme Stimme,
zerreisst die eigne innre Stille,
laut beklagend Miesetaten,
von unerhörten Satansbraten.

I wrote this poem right before i decided to fight my long-time-depression (end of 2015). It is still full of the darkness i used to live in. I really felt left alone as a child and teenager. I try more colorful themes next time, i promise!

I do a lot of sports (climbing, hiking, Bodyweight training, cycling, running) and really like to eat, cook or be invited to a nice meal, hihihi. I like music, rock music, such as Kings of Leon and also Metalcore (August burns Red) and little Rap and Reggae (A Tribe Called Quest, Ritchie Spice). Also i like travelling.

le me trying to stand up straight only using my hands

I have been through a lot of tough times in my life, including substance abuse (mostly weed), beeing homeless, beeing unemployed for a long time, several break ups... So, in former times, my art was expressing my depression a lot.

people in the discothek

I am clean and also became a non-smoker since one and a half years (early in 2016 i finally quit), i found a new home on a great farm and i now have a job where i earn legal money (for the first time after six years). I want to begin my studys in october (social work, specialised on children and youthhood - to share my experience and try to be an authentic role model).

me, myself and i

What more to say about myself? I am le random guy from Germany. Actually i am a nice guy, produced by a bosnian father and a german mother. Somehow i do really like the idea of anarchie or communism. Still, i am conservative enough to want to start a family once. I think it is usually the best choice for children to grow up in (i was raised without my father, wich was very hard for me). And i'm also lazy. Once i found a bride i don't want to look for another one! I'm gonna keep her, as hooking up and getting divorced both is very expensive and exhausting. Maybe because i'm allready 29, i think like this, haha!

me & sunset, proudly posing

I will never go back and i love my life now! I hope my posts can be enriching this platform. So, maybe, by the grace of this guy called god, i'm back in the game i guess!? You only loose when you surrender. Never give up!!!

I entered this community to share some stories and art. Follow me if you like.
Thanks for your attention, have a great day!