Intimate insight into my bi-polar schitzo life. Part 1. Introduction

Life is beautiful. When I decided to relinquish control of the fear based religion that was my day to day life, I began to see the beauty in the moments of NOW.

I grew up believing that anyone that had an abundant supply of money was somehow inherently evil. Talks of love over everything, convinced me that nothing was worth persuing unless it was out of ''love.''

Now my idea of love was so out of wack that i latched onto any woman who showed me the slightest amount of attention. I dont have to explain that this was a problem from the get go. I blamed my partners for not having love for me. I contantly had emotional breakdowns wondering why nobody seemed to share the love that I possessed.

within the last few years it had came to light that what I was practicing was irresponsible, to blame others for the pain in my heart was an insult to everyone I met, and to myself. I started practicing meditation and had some experiences that opened my mind into realizing that all my problems were coming from myself. I was my own worst enemy.

When I was discharged from the US Army in 2012 is when I truly began to see myself and the problems that i created for myself.Love was a fools errand, for me anyway. I have always been the odd man out. Even in school i was that wierd er kid in the group of weird kids.

Presently I exist as a singular space time being, in an apartment the va helped me to move into. Life is beautiful every minute even though i do have my frustrations.

I know this post is a little scatterbrained, but its simply how my mind works. depending on the feedback i get from this post i shall reveal more and more from my bipolar schitzo-experience that i define as one life. nobodyishome has found his home, and Ii look forward to sharing this steemit journey, as well as sharing my intimate parts of my past experience with you all.

thank you for your time.