Welcome Sophia. You won't ever change my perception as I believe the Lord Jesus Christ is the way, the truth, and the life. Your story is indeed tragic and I'm very sad for you. Not only for the loss of your family but for your loss of the will to live. When you are an atheist, you believe in a definite end but if you believe in Jesus, He has promised everlasting life. If your family believed you would be reunited one day. I'll pray for you.