Hi @maria,
I want you to know before I give any advice that I have only been on Steemit for 8 days... in that 8 days has been a lot of growth and learning for me.
I'm certainly no expert but pulling in from my other life experiences, I can tell you that if you're trying too hard, you'll be left disappointed. I know for many people on here, they are struggling to try to have this as their income source. I don't know that I suggest that as it causes a lot of stress and pressure.
What I would say to you and anyone else in your situation is to let go of the worry, anticipation and expectations you're feeling and just write about what matters to you or what you care about! If not, you're going to spend a lot of time trying to please other people and that doesn't sound very rewarding to me, personally.

Either way, I hope this helps and that you see what you seek come to you :)
Wishing you the best,
XO,
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