@samantha3105 - Thank you for sharing your life and your thoughts. There are many wise sayings but there are also quite a bit of contradiction and confusion, but as you said: "it is what it is".
One thing that I think I can comment on is:
"I was never a pretty girl, so I wasn't the one to get the boy."
I think most people will disagree with "I was never a pretty girl" because you are one.
You have said that you don't really care about what others think about you, so "getting the boy" or "any boy" should not matter to you, hence a contradiction.
I don't know if you are expecting any comments or suggestions on anything you wrote, but if you do, it would be well to be more concise or focused on a smaller number of thoughts and statements.
If I can help in any way, please let me know.
All the best!