A Tapestry of Stories: Getting to Know Coco! 🌷

Hello Hive! Before I introduce myself, I just want to express my gratitude to @jobeliever my English Teacher who had given me the opportunity to be a portion of this community where I am able to share my backgrounds and strolls of life.

So, let me introduce myself. My real name is Justine Nicole N. Sunit, you can call me “coco” to keep it short. Well honestly, it took me some time to come up for a nickname since I don’t have one. And I wanted something cute, so I decided to create a nickname for myself.

If I were to describe myself in a few words, firstly, I consider myself as risk-taker. I have always been willing to step out of my comfort zone and embrace new things. Secondly, I am also an independent individual. I have always had a strong sense of self reliance and a desire to forge my own path. I am comfortable in making decisions my own, taking responsibility of my actions, and embracing the freedom to pursue my passions. Lastly, I am a passionate individual. When I set my mind to something, I wholeheartedly commit myself to it. I believe that passion is the driving force behind meaningful accomplishments.

Threads of My Background 📌

I have 5 half-siblings – four siblings from my father’s side in his previous marriage, and also a one sister from my mother’s previous marriage. I was the only daughter from my current unmarried but (not so) happy parents, who had both been married to other people before they found each other.

Being the only daughter of my parents, who were both previously married, has often led me to confusion and embarrassment when people asked me about my parents’ marital status.

I am not particularly close to my four brothers since I didn’t get to live together with them. Meanwhile, my one and only sister and I has a really strong bond together, but we live far apart and only see each other on special occasions.

Living apart from my siblings made me feel like an only child who is often lonely and not having someone to play with or share thoughts and memories which often leads me to feel isolated and lonely.

Growing up as only child has its perks and downsides. On one hand, I have always been the center of attention and the apple of my parents’ eyes. On each weekend, I am being pampered by my parents. I genuinely enjoy receiving treats from them as well as how I love it when they deliberately make efforts for me, but despite these gentle warming gestures, it only happens when weekends pass alone. I still find myself consistently yearning attention from my parents and craving for more gentle touch from them. My parents being persistently committed to their jobs that tether them away from our bonds. Leaving me adrift, as I watched them drift away because of being too tied up with their work.

Throughout my elementary days, I’ve felt that envy started to sneak up and drew up on me as I witnessed my classmates being accompanied wholeheartedly by their parents. I started to feel insecure as I watched their parents being mentally and physically present, while my parents are mentally absent but physically present. These events has projected me a peak of self-sufficiency.

In a young age, my parents’ expectations had weighed up on my tender shoulders, being tethered by their academics expectation. I have been a consistent achiever since then, etching my name on each honor rolls. I have been experiencing countless silent battles each night everytime fear creep onto me, marking my mental well-being. The fear of not finding your name on each listed honor rolls, the fear of not being able to stand proudly on each stages. I felt my life being tied up on a piece of thread as I failed to validate myself each day, leading to self-sabotage and isolation.

Fast forward, I was being compared to my cousin, her achievements as well as her perceived beauty, haunted my vivid dreams each night. It haunted my thoughts that I was nothing compared to her. I felt like I was nothing, but an average girl who’s constantly yearning to be like her.

The thoughts of questioning my self-worth, and capabilities had constantly invaded my mind. Why did my linguistic became pale? Why did I not inherit her unique facial creatures? The shadow of being too insecure loomed every inch of my body.

Thus, I managed to etch my presence with every achievements I persistently achieved. Through contests, through studying relentlessly each day and night. As the flow repeats itself. Alas, despite all of my efforts to meet their expectations, realization towered over me that I failed to meet their high-towered expectation. Even if I etch my spiritless soul, they could only glaze at my failures.

Throughout these years, my life was truly full of chaos. The trials and battles I fought silently has shaped me to be a better person. There are countless times where I would want to disappear without bidding a farewell to anyone, but I am delighted that I delivered my chapter without fully ending my story. There might be a lot of ink loss, a lot of dried tear, but there is always a chance after a failed value. Being an independent woman impels me to become stronger, as I took the chance to rule my own fate and actions.

On the other hand, destiny has other plans for me. I was 13 when I was accompanied to the nature’s whisper. As a city girl or as a city-dweller, it was definitely hard for me to adjust to a new atmosphere. An atmosphere that is full of serenity, that is full of welcoming air. I must admit that a city life was more than a joyful environment, comparing to a province life. The flashing lights, bustling lights, the sound of car honking. I never imagined myself to be accustomed to the tranquility of the countryside.

Sweet Obsessions 🍥

Going Thrift

Thrifty is one of my favorite pastimes! and it’s no surprise why. Not only it is an affordable way to find quality clothing and accessories, but it also allows me to express unique sense of style. I can mix and match patterns, colors, and textures that are completely unique to me. It’s easy for me to find items that reflects my personality in thrift stores and create a cohesive look.

Going to Café

I love going to café especially when studying. The cozy atmosphere, the aroma of brewed coffee, and the gentle buzz of conversations create the perfect environment for focus and concentration.

When I enter a café, I feel a sense of tranquility wash over me. The soft lighting, comfortable seating, and the soothing background music provides a serene ambiance.

The most favorite thing about my café visits is indulging my favorite drinks. There are two drinks that never fails to please my taste bud, and it is matcha and caramel macchiato — Matcha, with its vibrant green hue and delicate flavor, is a go-to choice for me. The earthy taste and natural sweetness of matcha helps me to calm my mind and keep me energized. Caramel macchiato — the combination of smooth espresso, velvety steamed milk, and sweet caramel syrup creates a delightful harmony of flavors, a drink that is perfect for studying.

Making Handwritten Letters

As for me, I have developed a deep love for creating handwritten letters, particularly in a coquette style, sealing it with red kisses. To add a unique and vintage touch, I use coffee-stained paper.

There’s something magical about picking up a pen and letting the words flow onto paper, knowing that each stroke is a reflection of my deepest emotions.

Listening to Music

Personally, music holds a special place in my heart. Wether I was feeling happy, sad, or even confused, music had a way of understanding and expressing my emotions better than words ever could. It became my go-to companion, offering me a sense of comfort when I needed it the most.

Watching Ghibli Movies

Well honestly, ghibli studio brings me a sense of tranquility and relaxation, especially when it’s night time. It is also light-hearted and whimsical, which adds to the overall calming atmosphere. Watching ghibli movies is not only about escaping but also feeling like living in different stories with different feeling.

Writing

For me, writing provides a sense of comfort and safety. It allows me to explore my thoughts and emotions in private space, free from judgment or interruption.

Reading Books or Reading Online like Wattpad

I love spending my Saturday nights alone reading in my little sanctuary. It gives me so much peace. It is like I am being transported to a place of serenity. It is a feeling that cannot be replicated by any other medium.

Hidden Gems: My Talents! 🥢

Singing

Singing is an art form that has always held a special place in my heart. I discovered my passion from singing since I was young and it has become and integral part of my life. Not only do I know how to sing, but I participate in singing competitions in our school and I am proud to be a member of the esteemed Glee Club.

Dancing

Dancing has always been a passion of mine. I make choreographies, especially for school competitions or performance. As a perfectionist, I strive for excellence in everything I do, and dancing is no exception. When it comes to creating choreographies, I pay attention to every detail, ensuring that every movement flows seamlessly and every step is executed flawlessly. I believe that perfection lies in the precision and synchronization of the dancers, and I work tirelessly just to achieve that.

What made me join HIVE?

This platform provided me with a safe and supportive space where I can freely express myself without fear of judgment or criticism. The freedom to share my thoughts, ideas, and experiences has been liberating and empowering.

Through Hive, I have found a community of like-minded individuals who share similar interests and passions. It is a space where I can engage in meaningful conversations, learn from others, and broaden my horizons.

To miss @indayclara and sir @intoybugoy. Thank you so much🤗.

That would be all! Thank you for your time and attention in reading my introduction blog. I look forward to seeing you all in my next blog! Have a great day!🌷