I recognize what you're describing. I've heard it described as an energy block. Christie Marie Sheldon is who I follow and learn from to clear my blocks. I've had wonderful success with her "Love Or Above" program. I am now studying her "Unlimited Abundance" program. I am also interested in experiencing a past life regression as I've heard so many positive testimonies about people healing in every way. I wish you a beautiful journey of self discovery! 😊