well, it sounds like you are doing more than OK everlove.. i think you nailed it there saying that life is a meditation, because that is the real goal.. to bring that state of being into every moment..

In India we call this Shanti.. Im Sure you heard of it! I have been gifted with the experience of Shanti many years ago, when for once I was totally aware and present with every movement, and even enjoying it.. Life was like an endless dance for many weeks, and even making a cup of tea was enjoyable.

I keep those memories as a guidepost to where I want to reach.. still got some ways to go!

<3 love and light <3