I tricked myself into believing
I put on the mask that does not fit me
I tried to live up to…
The life you bestowed upon me
I silenced the voice that was within me
Sipping away the pain
Danced in the shadow as my tears dripping
I thought to myself maybe
Just maybe, if I follow your rules
If I act as you asked, we might create Peace
I was wrong…
No, actually, I was lying to myself
All I wanted was for you to like me
I was trying too hard to please you
To earn your love and respect
If I take the mask off, will you still like me?
No, you will look down on me
And you will never want me
I thought to myself, that I can’t afford
I made lame excuses to keep the mask on
I tricked myself into believing
Silencing my voice
Leaving behind the dreams I once had
To create Peace
Who was I kidding?
My mind was racing thoughts
Filled with endless questions
There wasn’t any peace
But I dare not to mention
You probably thought I got it together
And with my life, I was satisfied
That was a pure deception
Dissatisfied, I began to feel the discomfort
My tears dripping, as I contemplated
On the deep fastening of the mask
One day, I decided to unfasten
Through nonsense prayer and truthful intention
Laying on my back, I closed my eyes
All of a sudden I was surrounded
And overwhelmed by the presence of love
Transforming the mask of dumb expectations
Into beautiful endless possibilities
Today I am free
I can express and I can show you my face.