In January, I firmly believed that my family and I needed to return back the United States for an extended period of time. We were visiting the States, but our thoughts and hearts were preparing to return back to Indonesia.
That sensation, that feeling for letting go of something that was so familiar was tough for me. It was more devastating for my wife and kiddos. My wife and I had lived overseas for 12 years. Four of our five children were born overseas.
As I was returning "home," I was asking my children to leave the only home that they really knew.
There was denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and finally ...
Acceptance.
We still cycle back into depression on occasion. I am sure we will for months (and maybe years) to come.
Even last night, I cried with my wife as I grieved a life that I truly loved, and grieved a part of my current life that I am struggling with (unemployment).
But I am choosing joy. It is a hard choice, but a choice none the less.
I have appreciated the opportunity to vent through my Steemit posts. Writing has become a therapeutic experience. I hope I have been available to help others who are struggling through tough situations.
I am still rough around the edges, and there are still things that I am working through. But that's ok!
And it is ok if you re still rough around the edges too.
Let's be a community that supports one another, and comes to each others' aid. Let's be a community that outsiders look at and want to join. Let's keep pressing on our individuals and as a united group.
Let's keep Steeming!
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It sure takes time! You have the chance to be with the ones you love and support each others ;))
@jamisa, I have a great family. My wife is very supportive. It has been hard, but we do have each other.
Awwww, a big hug for you. Everything will be ok for you and your family.
I know the feeling of returning to a place I choose to leave behind, but sometimes, life just gets in the way. But there's no shortcut, and soon we'll reap the rewards.
I like how your posts are real, and you are not afraid to show your feelings. Not everyone's like that.
@diabolika, cool, I am not sure that I have every received a digital hug.
Thanks for the encouragement and support. Because of your time overseas, I know that you can relate. We might look the same once we return "home," but we are never the same again inside.
Don't worry man, time will take all the anger, depression and grief away.
@monkeyfacts, I agree. Time does heal a lot of things.
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