Why only me ?
The person you see isn't same when s/he is alone. Believe me the person who seems happy has cried lots of time when no-one is around. You just don't see them crying. Life is full of ups and downs ! Every person in at least one point of life considers to suicide.
Listen to this song ! Read its lyrics !
Reasons : Why I want to help you ?
I lost a close friend due to suicide. I didn't know about his depression. How could someone like me close to him couldn't understand him. I regret so much. I couldn't help him but I want to help someone like him.
Though I don't know what are you going through now but believe me you aren't in the worst situation. There are lots of more people in the world than you think who are actually in bad situation than you. Many people dream to be where you are.
Suicide takes a lot of courage. Even if some parts of that courage is used in something else then success is sure.
Just for a second think about the best moment you had. Remember how happy you were that time. You can again get back that happiness. YES YOU CAN ! If you suicide then you can't ever be happy again. You will be sad forever. You will miss the next beautiful sunrise.
There are a lot of people who will miss you. Think how much it will hurt someone who loves you. That person who saw you today will not see you tomorrow. Your friends will be waiting for you. Think how much it will hurt when someone is waiting for you and they know that you will never come. Maybe there is person who wants to tell you that s/he loves you. How much will they cry when they see your dead body. Someone may be waiting to tell you something. You will never get to know that thing.
Time heals the wound. You will again be as happy as you were before. Your problem will slowly fade away. Give yourself some time. You will enjoy your life. You will get what you deserve.
You deserve much more than you think .You have to show how better you are. If you die you will be a looser. You will never win. But if you live your life and cope with this situation then you can proudly say " I have handled much more depressing moment than this. " later in life.
Success is waiting for you. Remember all the people who have survived suicide attempts have told that they had regretted just after the moment of attempt. SUICIDE IS PERMANENT SADNESS FOR TEMPORARY PROBLEMS.
New life can be started from right now. Just forget what happened in past. Those memories are gone. Enjoy every moment of life thinking that every moment is unrepeatable precious mine of happiness and opportunities.
"You can't change the past and make a brand new starting but you can start from now and make a brand new ending."
Go out look at nature. Its beautiful. Enjoy this wide nature. There is a lot of space in this earth. Try to move to another place if you can. Get what you want. Live the life that you deserve. Believe in yourself. Forget who hate you. They don't deserve to be remembered. You have show them how better you are.
GOOD LUCK ! I hope you will give yourself a chance. Comment down below if you have any specific problem. I am there for you. I will surely try to help you.
Sorry about your friend. Hope someone resonates with what you wrote :)
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