I believe with Steem as a social platform you have now a light at the end of the tunnel, that is sometimes we need a tool to dig us out of the difficult situation. You know how to do it and this is now the difficult part, it should be your routine, to keep the ball rolling, only then you will see the fruits of your work. I am really glad to see that you are creating this videos and it is obvious, you are now different person, it is noticeable that you eyes now shining, the way how you look is different, you are happy and that spirit you can transmit during your video. You becoming confident and I have a feeling you also enjoying it.

I wish you all the best and do not give up so quickly :)