Since the last war I fought, which was 10 years ago, I decided NOT to marry until I finish my service, and since this crap never ends, I'm now a 31 years old single man.
once we finish a war, we smell the next coming war through political tensions, and that's how the past 10 years in Ustio.
You can't drop the military, if a miracle happens and the government left you alone, people will despise you, especially a guy like me, with no family to worry about, or parents depending on, therefore, there are no excuses at all.
the funny thing is, I didn't marry because I do want to risk devastating my family if I died, And NOT because I wanted to be ready for the next war.
the people up high, arrange the war, adjusting things and preparing the war to start however they liked, then they assign us to the task of playing the hymn of the dead.
All these past years, I ask myself ( why do these people are the people in charge?), I mean they never achieved a single achievement, NOT a single one! and yet, they are the same people since I was born, circulating among high-value positions!
the funny part is neither the people who called to the war go and fight NOR the people who support them and ( Elect) they go to fight!
this happens in this way:-
the war drums beat, then the people up high call soldiers to the fight, and then the people who supported or (Elected) someone very senior will reach out to him to ask him to return the favor ( the supporting), by interceding to have him or someone he cars for to serve in a safe place, such as the military kitchen, or the supply routes, and places like these, and ones who didn't want the war, didn't agree to fight a neighboring country, didn't sign for war, didn't want this ruler in the first place, will be assigned to the front lines, funny, isn't it?
You might think they punish us, or they take revenge on us for NOT supporting them, but no, it's not like that, they don't know we even exist.
The third world people don't like their governments, the government members are fully aware of that, and yet, they are still in their positions, ignoring the millions boiling and about to explode and destroy the whole country!.
as for the group assigned to do the activities such as Opposition demonstrations, they are intelligence, and of course, they do their job after the state security gets rid of the independent politicians.
that is how our government, presents itself to the world as a democratic regime, and that is how they wash their hands out of the blood of the independent politicians who got killed in an accident or committed suicide.
My friend Naji, who I call (upset), got off our red sofa, he brought us a big coffee bottle, and two new cigarettes packs, it was this move he makes like the announcement for the beginning of our evening.
I told him:-
Naser:- Hey, upset, bring cream with you, I will not drink the coffee black this time.
Naji: You know what, I'm really upset, upset about this nickname you gave me.
he put the coffee bottle and the two cigarette packs on the table in front of us, and said:-
- Naji: in the past, the humans kind-faced a hard time distinguishing among things, so he invented the names, the only job the name has is to distinguish people one from another, and that's before the documents came to exist, and then the name got a new function...
and here, He noticed I wasn't paying attention to his narration, so he followed:-
- Naji:- what I wanted to say is, it would be better if you just called me Naji, That's my name's job.
I didn't answer, and for some reason, the anger and guilt started to take over my feelings, Naji noticed that, he sip the coffee, and said:-
- Naji:- what do you think of it?
I gave him a sad look, and in a sarcastic tone, I answered:-
- Naser:- This weak, I killed 10 persons, I think about the beach, and the sun of the winter in the early morning, and maybe the green spaces covered by the fog on the hills and mountains.
Then, a tear fell from my eye, and I changed my tune, I almost cried, and followed:-
- Naser: what do you think! the families of the people I killed! their wives, their children, their fathers, and mothers.
He lit a cigarette and passed it to me, and said:-
- Naji:- Wow Wow Wow, why this anger?
I answered with a deep sadness in my tone, and a tear about to fall:-
- Naser:- because that's all that I think of this last 10 years, the families of the people I kill, I think about maybe I'm killing someone who doesn't want to be in this war, I'm sure I killed a lot of these.
To be continued ...
