During arguments, my husband would always rush to mention that I was "on the devil's path"... Now, I would never listen, for two reasons.
1️⃣ It is said during arguments (although it isn't really something you can just BRING UP out of the blue 😅), so I believed it was only being said out of anger,
and
2️⃣ he obviously didn't know what the HELL he was talking about (no pun intended! 😩)!!
Well, it has come to turn out -- he DID know what the hell he was talking about; in fact, he was right the entire time...
The path I was on is difficult to explain. It wasn't as if I was out there, committing some malicious, heinous acts! 😅 It wasn't that I was having a difficult relationship with God.
No, sometimes the snare is simply tucked away in our thoughts, somewhere where it can always reach and influence us. I was having terrible thoughts, and was trying to justify them with juvenile excuses...
Being as prideful as I was, I could not hear my husband's words -- or, to be more precise, my husband's WARNING... Because then I found a book, a book about the theology of Christianity, and the author did a wonderful job of breaking things down.
He explained how some evils are worse than others, and how they are more difficult to correct. Basically, our thoughts are more evil than our actions, for our thoughts reveal the true intentions behind the actions. Obviously people can do the right thing for the wrong reasons -- like someone who helps the unfortunate, but only so people will look favorably upon them.
After reading this part, I went to bed shortly afterwards and was seized by panic. I was absolutely terrified. Terrified that my Father claiming, "I do not know you" could be a very real possibility due to my thoughts, but terrified because I could have been doomed the entire time and had not realized it. On the contrary -- I thought I was doing just fine! 😔...
If our entire purpose as human beings on this earth is to "love my neighbor as I love myself," then I NEED to start doing better. I need to see and HOPE for the good that is in all of us, in spite of the bad that exists -- including myself... I need to stop this pride if I wish to end this deliberating anger that has tainted every faucet of my life.
But, I especially need to do it for my family, for our children ❤️...
Thank you for checking out this week's post. I really appreciate it 🙏❤️ with the new year upon us, I figure a part of my resolutions should be dedicated to being more active here! So, I will do my best... I hope everyone has a terrific 2026, and may it treat us with more kindness than the previous year! 🙇♀️🤞