At least you are aware of your problems, therefore you will heal. I think everything is connected, both in the small and in the big. It would have been much worse if you were a Zombie without rescue.
I think that's how many people in society feel, damn it.
The best remedy is to take a joint. You seem to have writing talent, take a joint and sign off dear!! I paint myself!
It hurts to live, ease the pain......