Love

In this world there are ups and downs, sometimes we feel happy and sometimes we feel very sad and want to give up on everything. It's as though our emotions change like the weather sometimes. There are moments when we feel so happy and it will seem as though nothing in this world can affect our happiness again or break our hearts and cause it to bleed but I've come to understand that since we are humans living in this uncertain world everything is possible.
Sitting on a long bench while I listen to this beautiful song by Shania Twain, I reflect on my past, those moments when I was deeply in love with a beautiful model and was putting up every effort to fill in the gaps and make it work.

As it is said, nobody is perfect neither me nor my ex as of that time we were dating. She was the one who first showed me love, in fact she showered me with love and treated me in such a way I've never seen a woman treat a guy. In those moments I was very unsure of her motive even though the language of love was loud and clear to me but I wasn't even prepared yet to be into any serious relationship at that time. Sometimes when in a gathering with my friends, the beautiful young woman whose presence takes my breath away and makes my heart skip will show up. Each time she meets me with my friends she will make sure to leave the gift she came with in my hand before leaving, making sure none of them drags it with me. The moments when she meets me alone always turn out to be more fun because we will talk about almost everything in the world and our discussions will last for a very long time.

It got to a time when my friends started visiting me more often in order to catch a glimpse of my new girlfriend since they hardly see any lady around me. Also I noticed that they were also after the gifts she comes with, most especially the foods and drinks because most times they playful ask me to bring foods that my girlfriend brought so we can eat together. This mostly happens when they come and meet her or even see her around, they will believe she has brought something for me and left as it's her usual way.
After some time, my friends started asking me about her because she they haven't seen her for two days, I told them she's fine. They asked me who she is, I told them we were just friends and had nothing serious going on yet. It was when they encouraged me to take her as my girlfriend that it is very rare to see a beautiful lady like her that is willing to spend her money on a man.

They really made me believe that she was seriously in love with me and I accepted. Within myself I knew that it is very difficult for a girl to do such good things for a man except she wants to pass a message which is difficult to say. I already know that she wants something so I get a chance. I started showing her love as well by buying her the flowers she loves and lots more, not long after we had our first kiss. Things were fast progressing, I got to know her place and made it a point of duty to visit her after work whenever I can.
One day on my way to visit her, a guy confronted me and warned me to stop seeing her that she is her girlfriend but when I later asked my girlfriend, she told me that the guy would have been his boyfriend if he hadn't try to rape her. She told me all that happened and how they got to know each other, so I understood the guy wanted to have a piece of the beautiful girl by all means but his wild nature had driven her away from him and now he's monitoring her every move and making sure no other man comes into her life.

In my wisdom, I solved the issue of the guy and he was no more a treat. Everything was going well between me and my beautiful girl until I traveled and later came a few months after. That was when I could hardly understand her. Sometimes she would do very annoying things and I'd be angry and decide that I'd meet her and talk to her in such a way to express how bad I feel since we don't live together. In most cases, like magic, whenever I see her, my heart will be so full of joy and I'll forget all the anger I want to vent. Not once, not twice, I forgot to vent my anger on different things whenever I see her. It only comes back to my mind after our meeting, especially when I'm alone.
I don't know if that's not normal as of that time though but she was my first love and really my love grew so strong for her that I trusted her so much and showed her with much love, that was also the reason why the heartbreak was suffocating.

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Though I later traveled to obtain my degree in school as of that time and later returned, I noticed a change, which she couldn't agree to but lastly I caught her with the person she was cheating with. She cried, she begged but I've really had enough. I didn't hurt her feelings nor did I raise a finger against her but I let her move on with her life. I suffered in my heart and later recovered from the unexpected heartbreak. After many years had gone by, now it's nearly two years ago when I called her . We talked normally but she still was angry with me for not giving her a second chance and forgiving her. The way she spoke, she was seriously angry but I know what we had was already in the past and we had moved on with our lives and If I were to give a second chance to someone. It will be one who does not emotionally blackmail by making me feel guilty for asking necessary questions when I was clear she was seeing someone else.

Questions that come up because of her line being constantly busy all night and she telling me she will call back whenever I manage to reach her but not call back for days till I ask if there's someone else and she makes me feel guilty for not trusting her and asking questions as such.
No matter what, when you genuinely love someone, you won't completely hate them no matter what. I know though I hate what she did to me in the past but I will still try and save her life tomorrow if I see her in a situation that has the potential of ending her life.
Love conquers all.

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