The entire time I was still studying, I've always dreamed to be on top. Doing everything in my power and within rules to be the best in whatever I do mostly academics. But after college when I was already working, I realized I never truly dreamed about climbing the corporate ladder, being a CEO or whatever, deep inside what I wanted was happiness and peace and the ability to live life fully each day without regret or doubt or fear.
I still do work and give my best at work and fortunately was given huge responsibilities still but now I enjoy the moments at the "middle" and it's weird really but I find contentment here. Although it doesn't altogether stop me from pursuing my highest potentials. 💕
I can relate to you so much. I also was the one who was very careerist. But while doing my job I came to realize that was not making me happy. Rather putting less effort into my career and doing what matters most in life started to make me happy.
People will say we are not an achiever, we are losers or something like that. But I find it's totally fine to stick with what makes us happy.