It has been 17 days since I first joined the Hive life. I had chosen to mask myself with my Bitmoji the way I have to slowly step into this world of new engagement and virtual interactions.
But how would I be able to give you honest content if I hide and actually, all stories I intend to share really has my picture..
Plus.. I have come across a TikTok Video saying - "Fake it Till you Make it" is not the practice nowadays...these days you have to go out and share your journey. We don't need to fake things we still have not achieved but rather, we might as well just enjoy the journey as we make it through life. so here I AM.

YOUNG WILD AND FREE:

I would always like to perceive myself and aim to be this self. Proud of my little achievements in life, content, and happy. On my best and worst days I try to find the positive even in just a little spec of dust. The kid in me will always be here bursting imagination and playing. I am so comfortable being by myself. It was until I became an adult that I have slowly realized I was such an introvert although my personality has always deemed to be an extrovert.

There is always joy being a kid, remember that for the rest of your life.

MY "SINDIKATO" LOOK:

Oftentimes, you will always see me wearing black. I find comfort in it and power. This is the look I love putting on when I have to run errands and just need to drop my wife at work. This is the "Big Daddy" concept of wearing glasses to make you invisible. All black and then a burst of yellow (black and gold yeah). This is me telling the world "I am watching you...". An observer. A learner. The mystery you ought to discover is me and within me. For some, this is can RBF (resting bitch face), for me, this is the poker-face. The ability to not know what goes through the mind and the plans ahead. This is the brainstorming, the Thinking self, the planner, the over-thinker. Where the magic happens and energy and vibrations are all in-sync or at least in the same rhythm or a song. This is another comfort I enjoy within myself where external validation is not needed, where I am in full understanding and at ease knowing the fact that not a single soul in the world will be able to understand you, and THAT IS OK.

For you alone knows the real you, so enjoy in the comforts of your own.

THE PARTY - PARTY - YEAH:

Yes, This is also me. A dancer and a performer. This is my creative side. The one that peaks in from time to time and enjoy the spotlight and others. I call upon myself to entertain when it is needed and to bring life to a gathering whenever it becomes dull. I like me when I am on stage and dancing and moving and just having a free spirited time. These are the moments you find me in colors and different clothes. In this picture, I try to become a wench (pirate's mistress). I really love this picture because this is just pre-performance dancing and I was already having a blast. I couldn't get myself away from the stage at that time and just make entertaining feels so good. This is me telling you that it is OK to move. To feel your body and go with the flow. The free-spirited self. The "let's dance like no-one is watching" and just have absofuckingloutely funn! (with a double NN)

Life is a party so we might as well dance!

THE WHY:

But why would I make a secondary introductory post again of my true self? OK well, you see, I have always kept blogs over the years and that is where I get so personal. Writing for me is so personal and intimate. This is my brain we are having conversations with c'mon! Not a lot of people in my life gets a true-taste of it. I take credit for everything that comes out from my amazing brain. So why share this right now?

HIVE, you are the hand that reached out to me when I was drowning in my most darkest time of my life. (so yeah, technically we are still in it). You know those scenes in the movies when the person has gone deep down in the ocean and slow piano starts playing and the water gets darker and suddenly there is just this image of a hand just suddenly appear to try and emerge you out of the water just to make you remember how to breathe again. That you can breathe again. It does not get you out from the water or in my case, my situation, but at the very least, it reminds you to breathe.

And yes, I have been in and out of the water for the
past 17 days. Some days are really dark, some days are cloudy with a chance of meatballs. But always remember this.. every single time I am in here and writing and creating - I AM BREATHING AND ALIVE.

Special thanks to @romeskie for the patience you have shown in creating this account and your reminders that you send along the way. This is me telling you as early as now how you have shaken me from drowning in sorrows and even a stranger could sometimes be your savior. =) So keep doing what you do because you never know how much that person needed you. (Thumbs UP approved)

Hey! If you've reached this far reading my post, let us say this together...
I CAN MAKE MY WAY TO MY OWN HAPPINESS AND I AM STARTING NOW!

Have a Happy Hive Life!