Hi @anarkia! My heart goes out for you. Not sure if my words would either help too but I understand you as I have been in that situation before. It doesn't get better as fast I would like to. I feel there are a lot of unnecessary expectations you are holding on to and this causes so much mental anxiety. What I did before was to let go of these things and decided to focus on myself and it was a game changer for me. And when I say focus on myself - going through the healing that I needed to do. I hope you find that as well. Ask for it and the universe will show you ways and the support you need to do the healing.
Seeing you with your cat reminded me of my deceased pet cat Osiris. he was my companion through the challenging phase of my life. He served his purpose and he left when I was better. Cats have this amazing ability to absorb our negative energies so being with them just helps with grounding ourselves and finding the comfort and peace we need.
Hello @indayclara :) Thank you for this. Believe it or not, while I was reading your comment it kinda gave my heart an ache (but in a good way) and I felt reassured again. Like a pat on my back or a little push. I was holding back tears. I just feel so lonely and confused and pressured.
Maybe I'll do what you did. I'll do my best to let go and focus more on myself. But I don't even know where to start. 😅
I'm sorry for the lost of your cat. I'm sure he has lived his life with you fruitfully and happily. Thank you for taking care of him till his last breath.
Its good to know that even though humans can comfort us, there's just something about our pets that they do absorb all those negativities away.. even if its just for a moment. When no one else gave that to me, my cat did. All the warmth I needed to feel and the silence I needed to hear.
Sometimes I feel the problem is in my mental state. I wanted to go to a psychiatrist or something to take a look into my mental health but money always keeps getting in the way. hays..
Sige lang, baka sa sunod pag may budget na, makakapag punta na rin sa psycho doctor.
Thank you ulit ha? Thank you for sharing and for encouraging :)
Ask help from God/The Divine/The Universe, let go of how it will happen, surrender to the magic, and trust the process.
I had this thoughts before and I never ever went one because somehow my healing led me to meditation, yoga, and joining spiritual communities but yeah its not for everyone. But again, let go and trust that healing is already happening in your life and things will follow through.
Aight, proud of you already for having the awareness and I'm pretty sure you will come out of this dark shithole stronger and powerful. 😉
True. I think I do need to go back to my faith slowly na. hays. Thank you for reminding me that @indayclara .
I just thought that if I go to a psychiatrist or something, I would know if what mental disorder i have and may do some therapy to lessen it (?). You know something like that. Its good that you can do self healing. Not many others can do that either. You're such a strong woman indeed. 😊
Just like what Buster Moon from the animated film Sing (2016) said: