Hair holds trauma so I cut it! My new haircut and hair color💛✂️

Hello, Hive Community! 💖

I’m definitely a girl that feels comfortable with long hair. It’s my thing, my vibe. I believe my mom instilled this in me, she’s a woman with very abundant and long curly hair that everybody loves, people in the street ask her for her hair routine😂 she doesn’t have one, just a couple of oil drops. So, she made this a huge part of her personality. I don’t have the same type of hair that hers, mine is thiner, but I grew up with this in my head, so a part of my self esteem depends on having my hair long that reach the hips. Otherwise, I don’t feel pretty.

(My mom, her hair and me when I was little).

Recently, my hair had a lot of heat damage and because of all of what I just have explained, I’ve been literally running away from the fact that my long hair became unsustainable. It was thiner than ever, had a lot of breakage and the split ends were crying for help.

Hair holds trauma or so they say. It sounds dramatic, but I looked myself in the mirror and saw a person that feels stuck, that has trouble with letting her comfort zone and doesn’t let go a really dead hair and I thought: this feelings are totally related. So I called a hair salon and I scheduled an appointment. If I let go my dead hair, I’ll be able to take bigger steps like letting go fears and facilities. And if my self esteem depends of my long hair and I cut it, I’d have to build a self esteem with stronger bases that doesn't relies on how I look but in what I am.

(This is me before the haircut, the roots were kinda fine but the ends were very thin).

I went to the salon with my best attitude and sunglasses but I was SOOOO scared. I went to the Green Hair Eco Boutique Spa, an ecologic salon based in my city, Caracas, that only uses botanic products for your hair. They made an analysis of my hair with a machine and told that I have mid to low porosity and clogged follicles. It was dehydrated (that didn't need an analysis😂) so they recommended me some treatments. After that, we were ready for the haircut.

And this is me after cutting 5 inches of MY PRECIOUS!!! 😂😭 It was hard, I got some highlights to make easier the process, hahaha. One of the hairstylist were also a makeup artist so she did this beautiful makeup for the pictures of the "after".

Michelle from the present wishes that she could travel to the past and tell Michelle from that time: hey girl, guess what? We cut our hair and didn't die! But, most importantly, we took a weight off. It’s a metaphor but gosh, it feels so real!

I’m ready to see my hair and myself growing healthier💖

Thank you so much for reading! A hug, see you next time.